i feel so bad.. havent gone for prayer meeting the past three weeks... something alwaes seems to pop up.. argh..
tomorrow i'll be going for my sister's performance... called BONTASTIK!!! yay.. gonna support her all the way

after art camp todae... i went to town.. sat around and started thinking abt my coursework... wrote a few things down...
den i met up with my mum for a while.. did a little shopping.... bought 3 pairs of heels... haha.. so happy please from taka... saw soph at her counter... and just before i was about to go back she rang.. joined her for supper den we started talking... really in a god mood todae.. the only thing is my flu is killing me... its really killing me... argh! haha
but i'm still happy... when i was talkingto her... i talked abt him den i started to tear... damn! stupid ass him.... forget him la k...

well tomorroe i'll be going to meet mabel to pass her some money... heard she has a tattoo pls... argh!! damn she got one before me... nvm its okae... den i'm going to the library to study den i'll probably ask rach if i can go over to her place to put my stuff den go meet my mum for my sister's performance... gonna dress up tommorrow... so happy...

think i'm gonna sleep now.... gotta wake up early to pack.. muackz

browsing thru... why do i have to see you..
i noticed the style of writing... it somehow rang a bell
i saw the dream... it all gathered.. i ventured.. and there u were... damn...

just camoe back from malaysia... stayed in the stupid chalet.. was a real bore... damn!

on friday i went to sos with rach, elie,manda,sam fok,laura....was real fun.. there were like so many kcians there
really enjoyed myself compared to last week when that ass was there... danced all the way till it closed... woah! shiokness... wish i could go this week again but i've got camp the next day... was still planning to go actually... but maebe i see whether i have money first lah k...

after clubbing, we sat outside for a while marcus and tino kept on insisting i go home... but they probably didnt understand the situation... but i still love them anyway for looking out for me... yay! den after that we headed down to sam's house.. rachel went for supper with her friends while elie went home cos she was not feeling well... haiz... yeah.. so we talked the whole night and they kindly kept me awake... at about 6 i went for a shower den i was off to malaysia.. without a wink of sleep... but i was still happy

once i got to the damn chalet.. i slept like mad... all the wae... while being eaten by mosquitoes... but i didnt have much choice... all i did there aniwae was to eat and eat non-stop as i watched the time passby slowly...
felt like a mother when i was playing and looking after the younger ones... i actually even showered and changed them... there just so adorable... i tied up the hair... put them in to little brades... they look so fresh and pretty.... awww....haha,...

nicole tan is over at my place now.. we're probably going to town later with the rest of the family later...
i wanna go buy new shoes... hehe.. do a little christmas shopping!! YAY!!
i'll be working tommorrow.. and going for art camp on wed and thurs.... den on fri i'll be going to watch my sister's drama nite.... she's playing a muscle.. so cute!!! den sat to mon i have con3 camp... heard there's gonna be the candle fight again.. haha.... so fun!! cant wait... better go rest now.. kinda tired... muacks

i'm sure there is still a chance... i'm not gonna letting u make me give up...

i really need to express my self to someone in the family.. i cant seem to open up to anyone at all.i've really been bottling up alot of things that concerns me and the people around me...i really dont know whats wrong with me. i know i'm not the best daughter ever... why? why? why? its really sad that i have to result to this... i wish my mum would just treat me the way she treats others... she slwys mkes me feel like i'm the problem of everything.. i admit i'm at fault at times when i come back late nights and all.. but the reason i come home late is because i dun see the point of coming home early to a house filled with frustration where i have to act and not be myself.. it really sucks... i hate it... my frens make me feel so much better... they let me get my mind off a whole lot of things.. i'll update later... gotta go to work now....

okae... just woke up...
gotta go to work later...
dint go tanning in the end.....
elie is sick.. she's own with a fever....
GET WELL SOON PLS!!!! esp for tomorrow!!!
and besides.. its raining....

i dun think i'll be doing much today besides studying...
i'll be a good girl... i promise

can u please leave me alone... i think its about time you got of my mind... i cant afford crying for you anymore... your a complete asshole... i;m so tired of you... please get the fuck out of my head please... everytime i talk abt you i do nothing but cry... why the hell for??? bastard bastard bastard!!!!! u tell myself i hate you but i know i dont... thats why i cant move on...its really not easy.... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck....

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just got back not too long ago..
stayed over at estrop's house last night...
spent the night watching movies....
woke up late for work today... suppose to be at work at one
but i only woke up at that time... i'm terrible...
work was ok... i was so free till i could paint my colleague's nails.. haha

i guess i'll be going to sentosa tomorrow... going tanning... yay!
den i guess i'll be going to work from there... sigh... haha
i hope i get my pay before the end of this week... i wanna go shopping
got so many things to do...
1.gotta call my classmates and tell them abt sch hw
2.call the art girls to tell them abt the camp
3.study for my a.maths test
4.go shopping
5.spend time with my friends
6.have fun...
haha.... okae lah.. not that many lah... but still haha

i better get going now...
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really have a lot kept inside... i cant express how i feel at all... no one seems to understand me

totally turned off

fridae
okae... i was suppose to go to work but too off in the end
went to the chi hua hua dance party with elie and a few others
saw gayle there... that was one of the turn offs... argh
den after that i headed down to SOS
saw that adrian there... he was like dancing right next to me...C WALK!!! -yucks
but i didnt give a shit pls... he did ruin it a little for me but not much lah
i went there to enjoy and i did enjoy.... but i got a little irritated when his friends were calling out my name
fucking childish can...
oh yeah... met up with sophie at her counter... she looked damn good... she loss weight too pls.. haha
not fair... argh
delvin called me in the middle of the night to tell me that he saw me... lame pls.. haha
got home at abt 3.15..

saturdae
woke up at abt 1.... went to changi hospital to visit fera
she collapsed and got admitted... was abit upset when i found out
so i went there to see her den left for work...
i guess i'll be going there for the next few days wit keep her company together with a few others
haha...
work today was super duper busy....
i kinda screwed up a little with the billing... but its okae lah... haha
just watch finding nemo... damn cute sia...
i think i'm like gonna talk on the phone for a while b4 i sleep...
goodnight

okay... i'm kinda bored now so i'm gonna do a survey..... bleahz..

¤ Name: chanel
¤ Birth date: 25th April 1988
¤ Birthplace: Mt Alvernia Hospital (Singapore)
¤ Current Location: chai chee street
¤ Eye: dark brown
¤ Hair: dark brown.. i think
¤ Height: 163cm
¤ Righty or Lefty: Righty
¤ Zodiac Sign: taurus

LAYER TWO
¤ Your heritage: eurasian
¤ Your weakness: fats
¤ Your shoes you wore today: brown sequin slippers
¤ Your fears: lonliness
¤ Your perfect pizza: hawaiian with extra pineapple i guess
¤ Goal you'd like to achieve: performing artiste

LAYER THREE
¤ Your thoughts first waking up: can i not wake up?
¤ Your best physical feature: hmm... none
¤ Your bedtime: 2...maybe 3
¤ Your most missed memory: too many lah k...

LAYER FOUR
¤ Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
¤ McDonald's or Burger King: Bk
¤ Single or group dates: Single
¤ Adidas or Nike: Adidas
¤ Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
¤ Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
¤ Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE
¤ Smoke: unfortunately... but i'm quiting...soon!
¤ Cuss: huh?
¤ Sing: Yeah
¤ Take a shower everyday: DUH!!! whoever doesnt i will not befriend!!!
¤ Have a crush: not at the moment... dont wish to either
¤ Do you think you've been in love: Yeah
¤ Want to go to college: trying very hard
¤ Want to get married: yeah
¤ Believe in yourself: Not really
¤ Get motion sickness: yupperz
¤ Think you're attractive: not at all
¤ Think you're a health freak: NO
¤ Get along with your parents: sometimes
¤ Like thunderstorms: no.. but if i'm with someone i love... hell yeah
¤ Play an instrument:even if i do.. i cant make it

LAYER 6:
¤ Gone to the mall?: i'm like 15... not a day old.. hello!!!!
¤ Eaten an entire box of Oreos: not thati can remember.. dun fancy oreo
¤ Eaten sushi: yeah.. love them as long as they do nothave wasabi or salmon or anithing yuckie
¤ Been on stage: yerp and i love it up there
¤ Gone skating: yeah... havent gone in a longtime though.
¤ Made homemade cookies: yeah.. i remeber the first time when i used the wrong flour and the turned out like shit
¤ Gone skinny dipping: huh?.
¤ Dyed your hair: yeah
¤ Stolen anything: an eraser... by accident... really... haha

LAYER SEVEN:
¤ Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: NO
¤ Been called a tease:i think so... primary sch
¤ Gotten beaten up: nope

LAYER EIGHT
¤ Age you hope to be married: before i turn 27
¤ Numbers and Names of Children: 2-4...names i'm not sure.....
¤ Describe your dream wedding: beach dinner and dance
¤ How do you want to die: in my sleep
¤ Where you want to go to college:states or australia.... i dun think i'll live here in singapore
¤ What do you want to be when you grow up: performing artiste
¤ What country would you most like to visit: japan,states,brazil,jamaica

LAYER NINE: in a guy/girl
¤ Best eye color: brown or blue, maybe nice see green....whoah!
¤ Best hair colour: brown or blonde
¤ Short or long hair: short! i wanna man... not someone who brushes his hair with me
¤ Height: taller than me is good
¤ Best weight: hmm.... i dunno
¤ Best articles of clothing: anything he looks good in... no cartoon shirts
¤ Best first date location: dinner? movies? dance lesson?
¤ Best first kiss location: beach?

LAYER TEN
¤ Number of drugs taken illegally: i'm a good girl really
¤ Number of CDs that I own: alot but they're like lost and gone
¤ Number of piercings: 8
¤ Number of tattoos:1... the circle on my back.. hehe
¤ Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: countless... its everywhere.. i'm branded sweetie..haha
¤ Number of scars on my body: a handfull and they're ugly
¤ Number of things in my past that I regret: Alot.

okae... went to my mum's cafe at lke 9 this morning and i left at 3
went down to tanjong pagar for manicure and pedicure...
decided to treat myself.. besides my nails are horrible...
den cam home woith my mum....
was suppose to work today but because of my mum's cafe....
thank god rachel was free to stand in for me...
THANKS RACHEL SWEETIE

now i'm home sitting in front of my com with nothing to do....
i have to go to school tomorrow to see chua regarding my a.maths
den i might be going to do my IC den heading down to the cafe again
so happy k.. i'll be meeting elie fera and marianne tomorrow in town
just the 4 of us... i'm gonna buy that small baggie thing.... yay!!!
its been a long time since we all went out....
but i'll be leaving early for work... sigh!!!!
think positive chanel.... there's money involved for u to shop shop shop!!!
haha... so fun .....

gotta go study now...
toodle-loo

went to school this mornng to see chua and the vp
cheerleading is gone pls... cried in front of jega and lee... *paiseh*
i guess cheerleading really means alot to me.. and besides its my last year

anyway... to the fun part....yay!
went with elie and fera to town today...
did more of window shopping... haha...
we like tried on dresses at top shop without having any intention of buying them
haha... real fun... kinda upset dat i didnt manage to find my black pouch and a wallet
but i bought this dark brown belt and nail polish... yay!!!!!!
haha.. i shall buy the small back from miss match i think thats what its called on thursday..YAY!

chua called me todae to tell me that i've got to sit for an a.maths test
sigh... i gotta get at least 45%...die die die.... gotta study... argh
i guess i shall study the whole of tomorrow.... sigh...

toodles

woke up at around 12 today...
was rushed to go watch uptown girls....
so idiot... the very last part i like cried the most den the show ended...
had to bring my super contorted face back... damn...
but it was a good movie i must say..
came home cos i was really tired so i slept all the way till 8
now i'm like waiting for my sister to come over to do my hair.. yay!!!
i guess i'll be spending my day at audrey's chalet tomorrow..
but i'll be working at my mum's cafe in the morning till abt 2
$5/hour.... not bad... haha... just sit there and wait for ppl... hah
hmmm.. dun realli have much to say cos i spent most of my time in lala land
so i'll just go now

over and out

well.. since i have the time... mght as well updat abt what has been happening

cheerleading might be closing down...
friday was the day i really found out how much it meant to me
cried so much...
i hate those teachers... they dun care abt the students.. the image is more important
sigh...
work was kinda okae... a little busy though
but i dunno why... they whole day was just ruined until....
rachel messaged asking me if i wanted to go to SOS
hahah... its really been a long time since i went clubbing with her and all
was kinda excited but paniced at the same time cause i was really short of cash
went to the extend of asking my manager if i could borrow 20 bucks... lame!!!
in the end i called elie and asked her if i could borrow money from her to take a cab back
she's really my life saver.... THANKS SEXY ELIE!!!!!
when i got there...bumped into santino and he like was damn shock i was there
he saed that i reminded him of his sister.. and he was damn scared... he like scolded me for being there
den i told him that i didnt have money to go home...
and he was nice enough to give me all he had-$1... haha
went home at abt 1.50... couldn't really stay long.... told my mum i was going for supper after work
was happy to actually spend some time with rach.. really miss her and all... haha... i'm not a lesbian...
she's my best friend.... put our differences aside- she is a nice girl and a very good friend to me...

so thats abt it.. my fridae...

its like sundae now... going for facial later and my sister is coming over to colour my hair... yay
so happy.... monday is audrey's birthday and i'll be going for her chalet.. den i'm off till wednesdae...
i'm gonna enjoy my holidaes b4 i start mugging for my o's

kinda tired now... shall update soon yeah...
and to all the people who are thinking of me.... thanks
to all those who love me... i love you too...
and to the rest... especiall you... fuck you
goodnight~

hmm... *rubs stomach*
super full now...
didnt do much today
went for mass den i was suppose to go meet elie in town
but we cancelled our plans cos it would be too late..
sorry elie!!!

i really dunno why... but i'm still like not satisfied with my blog... damn damn

ok.. re-did the blog again.. nothing fantastic though.. still havent finished yet..
but i really need to leave the house like now..
ttfn...

well... this skin is gonna be temporary only...
haiz... cant find anithing proper... maybe i'll make my own lah huh
yeah.. thats all i have to say

didnt go to work todae...
not feeling too good
was kinda irritated in school todae...
many people didnt turn up for the cheerleading meeting
i dunno why some ppl are all talk no action
they want cheerleading to continue but they just nicely dun turn up
screw it
that stupid bitch got the cheek to tell us to consult our seniors first
probably from what i know... she thinkks she's a senior
i seriously had enough of her .... she sucks
we got direct instructions from the teacher bitch!!!!!!!!!
just get ur fucking short body and short legs plus ur damn frog eyes out of the team lah k

*pissed off*

today was my first day of work
i must say our employers treat us real well
hehe... thats very very very good yes
didnt do much... sat ard yet i still got paid..
haha... not bad...

there were alot of real cute kids ard
i just felt like stealing them...
manage to get their attention a little
and sexily did my hello wave....
hehe...really cant wait to have my own...

suppose to be doing my maths hw now
but i'll do it later i guess...
have sch tomorrow and i'll be working night shift
sigh.... dunno if i'll be able to take it
school the next day too...
i shall comfort myself...
i need the $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

better go do my work now or else it will never end...
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went to school this morning for parent teacher's meeting
was kinda long pls... haha
but the good news is that....
I GOT PROMOTED...haha.. so happy yay

den went home and all..
met audrey den we headed down to meet rach
went for a job interview..
and amazingly got the job right away
i start work tomorrow please

didn't wanna do waitressing actually...
but what the hell right...
its at fullerton there.. under the bridge
satay anyone?
hehe.. some more the place is near boat quay
so i've got excuses settled.. haha
this is just tooooooo fun

den audrey rach and i met elie in town...
didnt really do much today...
oh and elie... sorry we were late...
den we all went back home....

i wanna buy a black pouch...
in fact i wanna buy alot of tings..
just too many to name...
going cycling in a while...
need to burn out fats.... hehe
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