you know... i guess u just have those days where u just wanna be left alone away from the world
but there are just some days where u just wanna be with the person you love the most... he knows it.. but he aint there
thats the damn sad part....you try ur best talking to him and he says he's sorry and that he will try to change, but ther very next day... just the very next day... *poof* he's normal... no point talking... this of cos is the male species... call me sexist... but who the fuck cares.. they are all screwed up... i mean i have just come to a point where i wanna give it all up... its not easy when ur the only one trying to make things work... den when u try to let it go... he is the one not letting it happen.... this new year is so screwed up... its not only the new year but more like the past 10 days... i hate it!!!!!!

well... okay.. the christmas season is not exactly over but we're almost there
christmas wasnt realli the same for me this year. no rach!!!! but she's back... hope she'll be free on new year's eve
HE was away and hasnt called till now... damn!
what can i sae... but spent christmas with a few friends and my family... turned out to be good after all...
i may not be using this blog next year... although it does have a lot of memorie... hehe
still thinking though...

i think i will be dropping amaths after all.. i didnt even study for the test and i actualli sat for it...
i realli dunno what i was thinking... haiz... i think i better hit to my homework now...

chocolate chip bread never tasted so good before...

woke up at abt 3 todae and got ready for work...
got my pay today and i'm off clubbing tomorrow... yay
realised that christmas is like next week... oh my my... and so is my amaths test...
really dont feel like sitting for it at all... sigh... its such a drag

hui wen is back in singpore.. she's coming clubbing tomorrow too.. so is jane...
this is gonna be so fun... yay! but sadly someone cant be there... so not so fun anymore
nothing much to blog right now and my room is getting a little messy
gonna clear up now... toodles

ok everyone... my room is finally completed... so happy
feel really accomplished...
i'm so happy now... threw alot of stuff away...
but i kept those with sentimental value
like the mounting board rach gave me last year for my bdae...
cant believe i actualli found jason's valentine's day card...
i threw it away anyway.. haha... screw him...

anyway.. i'm really satisfied with the way my roon looks now
and i'm very proud to let anyone walk in... yay!

well i have been busy t hese past few days doing up my room...
went to ikea on thursdae and i bought a shoe cupboard and a white princess-ie bed frame..
its real sweet...
so happy
den on fridae i went to get pink paint for my room and it was collete's bdae too
manage to finish painting my walls PINK last night and put back all the shelving all by myself.. so proud
den i soon got bored.. so i started painting butterflies on the wall
i have 2 PURPLE butterflies now... i slowly paint more soon... no hurry

my bed should be coming tomorrow den my room should be almost completed...
just have to get the curtains and clear up the mess...
i might be giving half of my clothes awae cos i dun even use them anymore... hehe...
i'm really supperly proud of my room
so happy...
so if anyone wants to come over... by all means.. hehe...

gonna go for dinner at aunty michelle's place later with rach sam and jasmin...
gotta meet them at parkway at 4 to get her and uncle gary the'r christmas presents...

you know what i miss elie so much... now that she in dunno which part of japan... i just feel weird...
christmas is gonna be so weird this year without rach around... she's going to BANG-COCK and ya..
i mean its like we've spent the last 2 years of christmas together and this year she's going away... DAMN!!!

i have 12 days to christmas and i have not gotten anyone anything yet... except *****... hehe
i have 13 days to my a.maths exam and i haven't started studying yet.. oopsie !
i have 14 days to my the dance performance for the prime minister
i have 19 days before school re-opens and i haven't done any od my homwork which is like
->malay project -which i totally cant be bothered to do
->maths tys -the 2 exam papers
->geography -which i totallyhave no idea what i am suppose to do
->art -20 thumbnail sketches of my final piece which i am going to get started with real soon.. YAY!
i love art... haha... makes me feel so artistically talented which i am so not...

ok.... i feel like typing more so yeah...
yesterday for collete's birthdae we had seafood..
mum,kaisha,grandpa,penny,ishak and my brudder in law -fadly were all there...
it was quite an entertaining dinner....
wanted very much to go clubbing yesterdae but i couldnt find any excuse
and kameel just had to msg me to make me feel jealous by asking me if i was going
i mean it has been 2 whole weeks since i last gone..
i think i should be going next week... bringing krystle with me.. she's from tkgs... she wants to come
sort of like made frens with her...
goonna try to get lots of people to go... so that we all can have fun b4 school starts...
let me see... there is.... rachel, sam fok, laura, amanda, melanie, lino, scott, tracy, krystle, kameel,
gonna try asking elie, fera,ryan, paolo,step ann, jonathan, tasha, sarah, audrey
and a few others... cant exactly think now... yeah... its gonna be real fun...
cant wait for tomorrow.... the bed the bed the bed... the bed is coming... haha...
i have glenn's bbq on monday dance on tuesday,wednesday and thurday,clubbing on fridae, shopping on saturday and studying on sunday... i got it all planned out.. yay! shall go start getting ready soon... till den...toodles~

NOBODY KNOWS IT BUT ME

i'm super super sleepy
was suppose to have tuition today but she cant make it
so i guess i'll be doing self study den i'll be going to work...
gonna do a draft for my new room....
gonna re-do my room by this weekend... dunno whether i should re-paint my room
i want it to be pink...
but maebe it will cost too much... sigh...
anyway.. i better get going now

there's so many things i wanna get done...
i wanna re-do my room, study for my a.maths and start preparing for sch, new make up, new clothes.
argh!!!!! just too many...
nvm.. i'll just take one step at a time.... dun worry chanel u'll be alrite

i wish i could say how i feel to u
but its not easy.. everytime i sae i thing...
u have a lot of things to sae.. which really brings me down...
sorry for being the bad guy