haiz.. feeling super miserable and friendless right now
there's really nothing to do
i'm practically dying
nothing much to say now
so yeah
*gone*

okay.. just finish doing adrian's blog
almost died can
i like started at about 12 and i like just finsh
quite fun i must say
the image there is just temporary
cos i had some problems with the other one learn a few things today..
haha... kinda proud of myself please
guess i'm going to my blog now... gonna have a new blog too...
YaY!!!!!

went to kcp today after school
saw cikgu normah and mrs loy
both of them kept on insisting that i have a bf
but i of cos just said no
haha
mrs loy kept on telling me that she's proud of me and that i looke more like my mother
cikgu normah saed that i look diff too... she was like.... "i think its the eyebrows"
damn cartoon sia

after that i rushed home for tuition
den went downstairs to meet fera and marianne to study
shameer joined us later after much persuasion
but of cos knowing chanel... i didnt study much todae

adrian is like staying over at his frend's house
haiz..... but well... i'm okae with it
just going to miss him alot alot alot
couldn't stop talking about him today...
i think fera and marianne got a little u knoe......
haha... i think i better stop bragging abt him lah
hahaha
but i still love him of cos..

think i'm gonna sleep now
shall study tomorrow
goodnite
muackz

just got off the phone

i am seriously and crazily in love with him
i wish i could be with him every second of the day
i just wanna be by his side
hold him tight and kiss goodnight

today is definitely a miracle...
especially at 11.19pm
at 10.50...
adrian told me that he was going to call me before 12
and i actually started laughing
den he told that he promise he would call
i told him that if he doesnt - he will be the joke of the year

so at 11.19 of this very day
adrian low called to tell me he was home
i was super super shocked
i asked him how come he was home so early ( stupid question)
all he could say was... cos i dun want to be the joke of the year
i was speechless
probably too amazed... trying hard to believe
so just to "break" my amazement...
i told him that he actually came home to make me happy...
(i think i said that to make myself happy too) hahah
but anyway... my point is now that
i am really proud of MR ADRIAN LOW
we shall remember this day...
and celebrate adrian's achievement every year from now on...
hahah

sorry ah.. got nothing else better to do...
really bored....
i am like cinderella now
waiting for midnight to strike...
to call that monkey
so that i can be happy...haha

oh my god... chanel is so lame.... please stop it now
goodnite

just came home
not in a very good mood today
whenever he messages...
it just feels so good
i dunno why... haha

after school todae... went to church for a meeting
planning the fundalicious camp
saw LINUS
haha... rachel was warning me not to turn around
but i did anyway... discretely

really gotta study todae
gonna start studying at 6 until he comes back
haha... feel so guai.. haha..
gonna shower now... muackz

i must quit... its gonna kill me

okay... so anyway... i am quite upset today
just sad that this is all happening right now
wish it could stop
but all i wanna say that i am actualli rather happy with the ppl i'm with
its like i can be myself who i am
i like it
but at the same time i just dun wanna have any rivals
haiz...

really have no mood right now
starlin is over at my place now
she is actually consoling me
so touched...
considering the fact that she is not even in my school animore
please let this stop... please

just got back not too long ago
super irritated now
in fact fucking irritated
why cant ppl just keep comments to themselves
fucking shit
argh
they just love to see ppl hurt and create trouble

didnt go to sch today
i wish i could never go to that ass sch again
to see ppl who just pass fucking rumours and horrible comments

OH MY GOD
i think adrian is sleeping
waited for him once again
i will try not to be upset
chanel must cool down....
i can do it yes i can
chanel will not get angry anymore
she will not let these things affect her
it doesn't matter

talking to marianne and fera on the phone now
suppose to be talking to adrian
but oops... didnt call him....hahhaha
well done...
hmmm... studied bio todae... NUTRITION
i'm so bored
nothing to do.... its 10.25 now

boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo
boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo
boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo
boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo
boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo

okay so mr low didnt pick up his phone... well done
i shall leave now

WAKE UP CHANEL!!! 37 MORE DAYS TO EOY

time is just passing by really fast... its really scary dont u think
suppose to be studying now but look at what i am doing
mrs chua said that she was going to call the parents of girls who failed 3 or more subjects
chanel failed like 4.... geography, science, malay and combine humans i think
sigh sigh
think i'm really gonna retain... it would be good though
hopefully if i retain i will be able to top the class *stares and starts dreaming*
yeah aniwae... i think i shall go study now...

By the way... my darling is sick... please pray for him...

rushed home after school todae
had a.maths tuition at like 3pm
also found out todae that fera was wih shameer
so cute can.. so happy for them
haha

i guess there's just some misunderstanding now
the thing is that marianne and fera are my friends
i mean its not like i wanna keep things away from her
i cant help it that fera sits in front of me and marianne at the side
i mean people tell me things because they trust me *i think*
i dun want our friendship to be like that
i cant alwaes say sorry because it will soom have no meaning
i wish i could clear it all
its really not easy...sigh

aniwae... after tuition i went to sleep
woke up at about 9 to have dinner
waiting for that asshole to reply my damn message
*paranoid*
shall not gey uptight lah huh
besides he has his own life too
i'm so tired

coming back to relationships......
EVERYONE IS LIKE GETTING ATTACHED
chanel+*toot*-> 5th august 03
marianne+eudee-> 20th august 03
fera+shameer-> 21st august 03
so cute right
could it be the lurrrve season
oh my god...chanel dont be lame

super tired now... don't whether i should wait for him
or got to sleep again... hoping never to wake up
I've got bubble tea everyone... my mumpits just bought it for me
honey milk tea anyone

nothing muchto say now already
i think i should be like studying

oh yes... i told him that i will quote him...
yesterday adrian saed that he will be back by 10pm
den i like started laughing
den after that maybe 11,12,1...how abt the next morning? *sacarstic*
so he enthusiastically said "10 lah 10 lah"
i was like "joke of the year"

that ass, MR LOW call and says
"girl, i dont think i'll be home by 10 cos i'm still at city hall"
i was like... "i know"....how?????
i told him that it was already 10.50
and he was super surprised....forgotten the time huh?
what a joker... stupid ass... act surprise...
so like that lah... going to enjoy my bao bao cha
goodnite sweeetheart

i actually realised that i am very selfish
i only think of myself
realised this thanks to *ahem*
really want to thank him
i mean we do quarrel about things
but he has taught me how open up and express my feelings
this is definitely something which i cant do
but i am slowly learning step by step

i almost lost him
i wanted to let him go
voices all surrounded me
to be deaf was all i hoped

he has helped me in every way
trying to do his best
but i still got angry
cos i put myself above the rest

i controlled myself
i needed to shout
i thought about my actions
and we finally let it out

he felt the same
both thought we were drifting apart
all i wanted was to fix it up

now that everything is okay
i wanna cherish every moment of everyday
time with him is just so precious now
i'll try my best to keep him somehow

i really love him
i really do
nothing will take him away from me
never again

girls especially
leave him alone
he's mine
u all can never take him away from me
no more
fuck off bitches

okay... so i re-did my layout
at least i tried right... haha
not bad for a start i must say
but i wanna thank mabel for roughly giving me an idea how to do it and all
next i am gonna thank rachel because she is GOING TO TEACH ME how to add the music in...haha
not shy ah.... haha

So anyway... today we got back our bio CA papers
I failed with pride... 6.5/15
Really have nothing to say about myself la
i am just too good
i came back home todae with the intentionof studying
but no.... what am i doing
on the computer once again for the past 2 hours
i am seriously not going to get anywhere...
oh ya....
I FINALLY HAVE PHOTOSHOP
thanks to mabel again of cos
she helped me burn it.... version 7.0 don't play ah

okay i think i am going to do the layout for my livejournal now
nothing else better to do...

what the world needs now... is love sweet love

Your Bedroom Personality Is Romantic!

For you, sex is an act of love.



What this means:



You wait the longest of all types to have sex.

You've got to be sure that you're in love...

And that your lover is devoted to you.



What your lovers love about you:



You make sex meaningful, passionate, and emotional.

You are caring and gentle throughout the whole act.

And once you have sex, you're likely to stick around for a while.



What your lovers can't stand about you:



For you sex and love are so entertwined...

That good sex can make you too attached.

And bad sex can make you feel unloved.



What's *Your* Bedroom Personality?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

A boy to call my own
I knew from the beginning
you were just a flirt
but yet i fell in love with you
knowing i'd get hurt

I'd thought i'd tie you down
and make you love just one
but how can i do something
no one else has ever done

I know you'll never love me
i'm trying not to cry
but i must find the strength
to kiss your lips goodbye

So when you ask for me
you'll find i won't be there
because i want a boy to call my own
not one i have to share

went to church todae for the planning thingy
cant wait for the thing to come.. after that i want for mass with rach and some other ppl who were there
after that i headed down with rach to parway for lunch...
met up with tasha, audret, patrick and shaun for a while
den went to mos burger to have lunch and to talk talk... yeah
after that rachel went for tuition while i went back home in a cab which cost me 5.50
was doing my geog homework for once den i decided to come online...
so yeah.... here i am...

yesterdae i was so happy that i finally went for my manicure and pedicure
came home at late last night to find out some shit i realli didn't wanna knoe
haiz...there's no point loving

so i finally went to sch after 6 day... got caught for my nails and nose stud by mrs chua...
emdd was great... did it all out... was rather cool... haha..
will be goingto the doctor for a check up again later
really scared.............
i really realli really want my hp back
i feel so lost without it
GK paper was rather difficult... probably because i didn't read the articles
CAs start next week and chanel is not prepared at all
first paper would be chemistry my most hated science subject
damn... dun think i wanna do my o's...
parents are abit tight on cash to send me overseas but i think i will be going there ater my o's in the end
its really not easy...
why must the school decide what subjects we should take and all
it is as good as planning our future for us
selfish people
if you're in the sciences ur a genius but if u in the arts-> u have no future
that is the impression given to many of us...
why must they push us and stream us?
it can be very degrading
why must they rush through the syllabus?
our course in the states takes 5 years while ours is 3.5 years
i find that this is totally crazy
now i know why so many people are deprived over childhood
could it be because they never manage to experience it to the fullest?
why are there so many children comitting suicide?
could it because everyone around them is pushing them?
believe it or not but kids are actually taught how to do simple things now such as smile, relax and even dancing
these things are suppose to come naturally
u dun have to be taught these kinda things
sigh....
genarally all i wanna say is that the education system here totally sucks
its just pressue pressure
argh!